On August 8, 2026, I stood inside Korczak Ziolkowski’s old studio at the Crazy Horse Memorial, looking up at a wooden loft where uniforms, drums, and a weathered banner reading “Fides et Justitia” have hung for decades. A few feet away, on a stone counter, sat a plaster bust of a mustachioed man in a bow tie, its base inscribed simply: “Charles S. Miller, 1858-1943, Leader of Mattatuck Drum Band for 50 years.” I hadn’t expected to find a piece of Connecticut history waiting for me in the Black Hills of South Dakota, but there it was, and it sent me back through nearly 150 years of story to understand how it got there.


A Band Older Than the Country Itself
The roots of the Mattatuck Drum Band reach back to 1767, when the Farmingbury Training Band formed in what is now Wolcott, Connecticut, making it one of the oldest continuously active fife-and-drum organizations in the nation. The unit passed through several names over the next century: the Training Band, the 10th Regiment Band, the Farmingbury Band, the Wolcott Drum Band, before Charles S. Miller and a group of East End Waterbury boys purchased its old equipment in 1881 and renamed it the Mattatuck Drum Band, borrowing the Native American name once used for Waterbury itself.
Miller had joined the drum corps at fourteen, in 1872, and would go on to lead it for fifty years, teaching more Connecticut boys to drum than perhaps anyone else of his era while keeping detailed personal journals of his life’s work from 1876 until his death in 1943.


An Artist Arrives in West Hartford
Around 1936, a Boston-born, self-taught sculptor named Korczak Ziolkowski settled in West Hartford. He was struck that the town had never memorialized its most famous native son, lexicographer Noah Webster, and proposed to carve a statue himself if the town would raise the funds. West Hartford’s contribution fell well short of his estimate, so Ziolkowski simply went to work anyway, carving a 32-ton block of Tennessee marble out of a borrowed trailer parked on the Town Hall lawn, often shirtless and in open defiance of local Blue Laws.


To bring ceremony to the project, he organized the Noah Webster Fife and Drum Corps, recruiting local schoolchildren, and he asked Charles Miller himself to train the young drummers. Miller, by then well into his eighties, made the roughly thirty-mile drive from Waterbury to West Hartford on a regular basis to fulfill that promise, no small commitment in an era when thirty miles per hour was considered speeding.


The Dedication and a Friendship Forged
On October 16, 1941, Noah Webster’s 183rd birthday, roughly 500 costumed citizens gathered for the statue’s unveiling. The Mattatuck Drum Band marched that day in Revolutionary-era uniforms, and the corps’ own records describe the two men becoming “fast friends” from that point forward, a bond between the sculptor and his wife on one side and the veteran bandleader on the other.


In gratitude for Miller’s decades of service and his personal mentorship of the young corps, the band asked Ziolkowski to sculpt a portrait bust of their leader. It was unveiled on February 15, 1942, timed to the 175th anniversary of the drum corps’ founding. Miller’s own words from that ceremony survive: he called the moment “a series of surprises,” marveling that at his advanced age he had “so many friends,” and said the memory of those “faces all radiant with hope, with good wishes and beauty” would stay with him “to the final end.”


Their friendship extended well past the formal tribute. The two men held “drum corps parties” at Ziolkowski’s home, ran drum-making sessions together in Miller’s barn, and once, in cold rain, the young corps surprised the aging bandleader with a birthday serenade for his eighty-fourth year.


A Corps Heads West
Miller died on March 14, 1943, five years before Ziolkowski would break ground on Crazy Horse. In November 1939, Ziolkowski had already received the letter that would redirect his life, an invitation from Lakota Chief Henry Standing Bear to carve a mountain memorial to Crazy Horse, because “the red man has great heroes, too.” After serving overseas during the war, Ziolkowski parted ways with West Hartford for good and, in 1947, loaded a caravan with drums, uniforms, and equipment, much of it heirloom material, and headed for the Black Hills.


That equipment became the founding stock of South Dakota’s first Ancient fife-and-drum unit, renamed the Hill City Fife and Drum Corps. After a falling-out with the town of Hill City, Ziolkowski chose to reform the group under its original Connecticut name, marching once again as the Noah Webster Fife and Drum Corps, now through the mountains of South Dakota rather than the streets of New England. Eventually, the sheer physical demands of carving Crazy Horse made sustaining both projects impossible, and the corps was set aside, though those who knew Ziolkowski say he never gave up hope of reviving it.
Even so, he remained connected to that world for the rest of his life. At his death in October 1982, the Company of Fifers and Drummers listed him simply as “K. Ziolkowski, 74, Drummer, Noah Webster FDC,” and credited him with introducing South Dakota to the sound of Ancient fifing and drumming.


What Remains
Standing in that studio on August 8, 2026, I could see it all laid out physically: the drums stacked on their wooden shelves, several still painted with the words “Noah Webster Crazy Horse Fife & Drum Corps,” the years “1942” and “1943” marked plainly beneath them, and Charlie Miller’s plaster likeness watching over the room from its stone perch. It is a strange and moving thing to see a small-town Connecticut friendship, between a headstrong young sculptor and an eighty-something bandleader, preserved inside the workshop of what has become the world’s largest sculpture in progress.
Miller never lived to see Crazy Horse rise from Thunderhead Mountain. But the drums he taught a generation of children to play made the journey west without him, and nearly a century later, they are still there, quietly keeping time.


Yale Divinity School and Yale School of Medicine recently hosted a searching interdisciplinary conversation on levitation, mystical experience, and the nature of consciousness, bringing together historian of religion Professor Carlos Eire and psychiatrist-neuroscientist Dr. Christopher Pittenger.

Under the title “Between Heaven and Brain: The Neuroscience and History of Extraordinary Bodily Experiences,” the evening explored how to take seriously centuries of testimony about phenomena such as levitation and bilocation without either credulous acceptance or reflexive dismissal.

Wild facts and social facts

Drawing on his book They Flew: A History of the Impossible, Eire introduced the audience to early modern mystics whose lives were surrounded by detailed reports of levitation, bilocation, and other extraordinary bodily events, including St. Teresa of Ávila, St. Joseph of Cupertino, Sor María de Ágreda, and the 20th century French nun Yvonne Aimée de Jésus. He described Inquisition-era beatification and canonization processes that gathered sworn testimony from hundreds of witnesses, many of whom believed that lying under oath could imperil their eternal souls.

These accounts, Eire argued, are what William James called “wild facts”, events that do not fit comfortably into existing explanatory frameworks yet are reported with remarkable consistency and moral seriousness. He contrasted such wild facts with “social facts”, the taken for granted assumptions that govern what a culture considers possible, such as the modern conviction that levitation and bilocation simply cannot occur. A recurring question in his work, he noted, is whether and how a “matrix of belief” might help make the impossible possible, or at least thinkable and narratable, in particular times and places.

The brain, experience, and what counts as explanation

Responding from the vantage point of contemporary neuroscience, Pittenger began by acknowledging that it is easy, from a “committed scientific reductionist” stance, to offer glib explanations for mystical phenomena, attributing them to seizures, temporal lobe disturbances, dissociative states, or mass misperception. Such moves, he suggested, may be technically plausible but often fail to engage the existential and spiritual weight of the experiences themselves.

Pittenger described himself as a “non reductive monist”, affirming that every subjective experience, even the most ineffable, is accompanied by complex brain processes without being exhausted or nullified by them. Using examples of pain, fear, and love, he argued that mapping neural correlates does not “explain away” those experiences any more than knowing which fibers carry pain signals makes the pain unreal. In the same way, identifying brain activity during spiritual ecstasies shows correlation, not reduction; the experiences remain real in the first person sense even when they can be studied in the third person.

Truth, testimony, and the limits of science

One of the most provocative threads of the evening concerned the meaning of truth in relation to shared and individual experience. Pittenger questioned the assumption that truth must always be a zero sum, single frame concept in which only one description of reality can be valid, proposing instead that there may be domains where multiple, non identical accounts are “true” within their own frames of reference. This opens conceptual room, he suggested, for experiences that may not show up on a videotape yet remain experientially real to those who live and witness them.

The discussion also probed the reliability of testimony, from cloistered nuns to modern scientists. Audience members raised the concern that if we discount clusters of historical eyewitness accounts as socially conditioned misremembering, we must also attend to the ways contemporary scientific observation is vulnerable to similar biases. Pittenger responded by emphasizing that science is not a static list of facts but a social process deliberately designed to mitigate such distortions through replication, antagonistic peer review, statistics, and methodological skepticism. The “proof” that these safeguards matter, he noted, is the tangible world of airplanes and electricity that works reliably within science’s proper domain, even as that domain does not encompass all of human experience.

Expectation, culture, and constructed reality

Both speakers converged on the importance of expectation and culture in shaping what people see, feel, and report. Eire raised the puzzle of why reports of levitation and similar phenomena seem more common in certain eras than today, asking whether a “relaxation of the impossibility” of such events within a believing community might increase their occurrence or at least their recognition. Pittenger, drawing on psychiatry and cognitive science, described how individuals and societies continually construct reality from incomplete information, leaning heavily on prior concepts and shared narratives.

He suggested that subtle social cues, authority structures, and communal expectations can profoundly condition experience, in ways that are not trivial or merely deceptive but speak to the deep intersubjective nature of human perception. Charismatic figures, especially in religious contexts, may shape the inner and outer experiences of those around them through channels that are not yet well understood scientifically but need not be labeled “supernatural” to be taken seriously.

Consciousness, eternity, and ongoing questions

In the final portion of the evening, the conversation widened to questions of consciousness, death, and eternity. For Eire, consciousness is an awareness of the self situated in an environment that constantly needs to be interpreted, framed by the philosophical puzzle that we find it nearly impossible to imagine our own non existence. Eternity, he suggested from a theological perspective, can be thought of as “a now that never ends”, challenging our linear conceptions of time.

Pittenger distinguished between the relatively tractable scientific task of modeling a self that monitors itself over time and the far more mysterious problem of qualitative subjectivity, what it feels like to be a self. He expressed skepticism that current scientific accounts have come close to resolving this “hard problem”, while resisting the conclusion that it is forever beyond naturalistic explanation.

The evening closed with reflections on professional risk and intellectual courage. Eire noted the intense resistance his work has sometimes provoked within the historical guild, including critiques that pathologize his interest in “impossible” phenomena or reduce it to cultural stereotypes. Pittenger shared that, as a scientist, he speaks only cautiously in public about metaphysical implications, but finds it essential to question unexamined assumptions of reductive materialism in order to make honest sense of spiritual life and subjective depth.

As participants lingered over wine, cheese, and dessert, the central questions remained deliberately unresolved: How should we weigh centuries of testimony about events that seem to defy the laws of physics? What can neuroscience say, and not say, about mystical ecstasy and the experience of God? And where might history, theology, and brain science together illuminate not only the limits of the possible, but also the richness of what it means to be conscious, believing human beings?


Every year I get inundated with requests to donate to the Great Give. I went through every organization participating in the 2023 Great Give and picked my favorites

Top 3 Picks:

10selden – My passion project facilitating artists to make their creative dreams come true. I am planning some great things in the coming year!
https://www.thegreatgive.org/organizations/10selden

Bethany Land Trust – an amazingly active and passionate group of environmentalists, naturalists, and natural historians. Another passion project of mine is being able to catalog and map native american stone structures.
https://www.thegreatgive.org/organizations/bethany-land-trust-inc

Clark Memorial Library – Fantastic community hub for Bethany. They were lifesavers for us as the kids grew up with our weekly visits to see Ms. Dorothy. Now the library is my primary source for all digital borrowing of audiobooks. For a small community library, they have done an amazing job of keeping relevant in ever-changing times.
https://www.thegreatgive.org/organizations/bethany-library-association

Honorable mentions:

Halfway Home Rescue – We’ve adopted multiple dogs and cats from Halfway Home. They are so great to work with and so passionate and caring. It’s so wonderful that they have partnered with Petsmart to help adopt these pets. We love them! 
https://www.thegreatgive.org/organizations/halfway-home-rescue-inc

Best Video Film and Cultural Center – Seems to be the hangout for our New Haven Friends from the 80s and 90s. Comfortable cozy location to see live music with great coffee and wine and beer. 
https://www.thegreatgive.org/organizations/best-video-film-and-cultural-center-59a8bc82-da49-4085-bf60-0277f2f0fcf3

Massaro Community Farm – Where I take my bee-keeping classes and where we get our CSA vegetables!
https://www.thegreatgive.org/organizations/massaro-community-farm

Neighborhood Housing Services of New Haven – They run this great program called I heart my home where they help navigate through the complexity of adding solar, heat pumps and making your home as energy efficient as possible.
https://www.thegreatgive.org/organizations/nhsnewhaven

A Broken Umbrella Theatre – We LOVE the Regicides improv comedy troupe!
https://www.thegreatgive.org/organizations/a-broken-umbrella-theatre

Lost In New Haven – such an amazing collection of New Haven history curated by Robert Greenberg. So excited about their new location. I strongly recommend signing up for a sneak peek visit as part of Arts and Ideas https://www.artidea.org/event/2022/4831 
https://www.thegreatgive.org/organizations/lost-in-new-haven-inc

Haven’s Harvest – Ali set up a partnership with Amity High School that saved thousands of pounds of food from going into the landfill. 
https://www.thegreatgive.org/organizations/lost-in-new-haven-inc

Sleeping Giant Park Association – An amazingly dedicated group of volunteers that maintains over 30 miles of trails on the iconic Sleeping Giant. Ali did her thesis research on miles of trails in the park. She’s also a giant master!
https://www.thegreatgive.org/organizations/sgpa

The Astronomical Society of New Haven – We always loved their star parties at the former Yale Bethany observatory. We haven’t been to one of their star parties for years but have very fond memories.
https://www.thegreatgive.org/organizations/the-astronomical-society-of-new-haven

The New Haven Documentary Film Festival – We’ve seen some AMAZING films over the years including a pleasant surprise with our son playing piano (we had no idea he was filmed!)
https://www.thegreatgive.org/organizations/nhdocs-the-new-haven-documentary-film-festival

Site Projects – brought amazing outdoor art to New Haven that makes me smile every time I see it.
https://www.thegreatgive.org/organizations/site-projects

Edgerton Park Conservancy – probably my favorite park in New Haven. Many fond memories of the CT folk festiva and green expo, and who cant forget sledding in the winter?
https://www.thegreatgive.org/organizations/edgerton-park-conservancy

Evan’s tweet is going viral. Gotta admit this is pretty cool!

The Foresters – Live Lunch Break performance 6/16/2016

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I saw Richard Thompson do his song 1952 Vincent Black Lightning from the 1991 album Rumor and Sigh live at the 1991 Newport Folk Festival and then some years later by Greg Brown at the Falcon Ridge Folk Festival. Both versions completely blow me away!

 

 

The boys and I got to see two phenomenal music documentaries last night at the Whitney Humanities Center as part of the 2015 New Haven Documentary Film Festival.

The first film was Salad Days written and directed by Scott Crawford. It documents the DiY Washington DC punk music scene from 1980 to 1990. It was so inspiring to see all these artists starting and building a music scene who’s wake is still felt to this day with bands such as Fugazi and Minor Threat. The rise of the independent record labels such as Dischord and the rise of the fanzine such as Metrozine (and many others) was so amazing.  The best part for me was to see that young teenagers making it all happen! I was so happy that my boys got to see this film!  Guys like Ian MacKaye were trailblazers that give them a framework for what their trying to do with the music scene with The Foresters and their music label Dord Music Group.

The second film was Danny Says directed by Brendan Toller. This gave us an inside look into the birth of the New York City art and music scene from Andy Worhol and The Velvet Underground in the early 60’s all the way through The Ramones in the 70’s. The film really highlighted Danny Fields passion for the music as a journalist, photographer, record label executive and manager, but most importantly as a fan. He liked what he liked first and the money was secondary. It was so amazing to see how he made it up as he went along and invented job titles in the music industry where none had existed before. I’m so excited the Danny Fields archives will be acquired by the Yale Beinecke Library

Danny Says Fundraising Video, Kickstarter Fall 2012 from Brendan Toller on Vimeo.
I strongly encourage you to see both of these films!